I now see things from a different perspective.

Many teachings speak about oneness, connectedness, and other concepts associated with enlightenment. The first time I experienced this sense of oneness and connection was when I used morning glory seeds, a psychedelic plant. It was the most powerful experience I had ever had. However, I felt that something was missing—a gap inside me.

In 2021, I received my first initiation from you, and I began to see a bigger picture. I explored the vast realms of the astral plane—not extensively, but enough to understand what was meant to unfold on my journey. At one point, I experienced a state beyond the mind, a formless state, yet the gap remained unfulfilled.

During my third initiation, I found myself shifting into a different state of being. At that moment, I discovered a state I had never lived in before. I then dedicated myself to deeper and deeper shadow work until I realized the state of “I AM.” But even then, the gap remained—there was still a state beyond it.

I wasn’t actively searching for an answer but allowed it to be revealed to me. One night, my Self traveled through higher states—not as a portal, but as vast dimensions of existence—until I dissolved into a state where the “I AM” ceased to exist. From that dissolution, “I AM” was reborn as an expression of that state. In that place, there was no separate self—only the merging of being and non-being.

And in that moment, the gap was finally fulfilled.